Where had the time gone?

Gracious, time just keeps going, doesn't it? I feel like everyday that passes I want to pause and take a snapshot of it. Like if I could literally freeze time just for a few minutes a day so I could remember all of the precious seconds that slip by when I am busy baking, cleaning, wasting time on Facebook. Enough melodrama, moving on. Things haven't stopped in our lives so here is what we are up to. Big is taking violin lessons and really enjoying the easy pace they are learning at. Little is getting ready to start indoor soccer and grateful doesn't even begin to describe how excited I am for the word "indoor." No bugs, no grass, no rain, I can't even. Although his seven year-old little hearts passion is basketball we couldn't find a team to join so soccer will do for now. Matt is happy at is job which says a lot to me and makes him come home in a good mood, even if he is tired a lot of times.
Now, I am excited to share my news. I have been toying around with the idea that I am sure lots of SAHMs do all the time but I'm writing a book. It is actually a book series and have five total planned books for this series. There could be more down the line but we will just have to wait and see were this one goes. I am looking forward to lots of writing and editing. I am going to be babysitting for the next five months during the mornings and will hopefully be writing while the little guy is napping. So there is my exciting news. Can't wait for you to meet the family behind the red door.

Walking with Jesus

I have had some new likes on my blog page so I'd
thought I'd give an update. Things are feeling pretty good lately. We feel settled but in a good way. Like the wind blowing a porch swing on a fall day or the smell of a wood stove when you are walking in the snow. Last semester was great and a crazy adventure. I went back to work part-time, I went back to college and learned ASL (sign language) and I volunteered a few times a week. We started working with the youth at our church and life just feels calm. I am not sure how long it will last. Money still is stretching more than I would prefer, my kids still argue who is going to look in the mirror longer when they brush their teeth, our cars AC only works part of the time. But God is faithful through it all. I am hoping once school starts to begin something I have been quietly working on for a few years though. I have a book series that I have been planning. A few characters, locations, loves and some losses; so we will see how they play out. I have mostly just rambled but I wanted to let you know if you wanted to know. I am hoping to pop in here more now that things feel settled. Enjoy the spray of the sprinkler on these hot summer days.

The Potter's Lamb: It's Been A Year

The Potter's Lamb: It's Been A Year: Well, in all actually it has been more than a year but close enough. I am pretty fuzzy headed today, it has been a long week and now my swee...

It's Been A Year

Well, in all actually it has been more than a year but close enough. I am pretty fuzzy headed today, it has been a long week and now my sweet boy is sick but this has been on my heart for a while now. Our life has gone though a lot of changes in a year.  The spiritual changes have been more than I can count. Even though it has been ten years some people still see the old Brittany. The one who lived in sin, who made many bad choices and chose to have an affair, get pregnant and divorced. They don't see how Christ has changed me, humbled me. None of my own accord but from prayer and the Word of God. It makes me so sad when I see them out. They notice me and look away; I try not to let it hurt when I speak and they look past me and walk away. But I won't lie, sometimes it feels like a burn that you try and ignore and then the fire bites so bad you can only cry out. Thankfully we can cry out to the ultimate Comforter.  I hurt that they are missing out on forgiveness that has so freely been given to them. They are missing the peace that forgiveness brings and more than that they saying they they don't think Christ death and Resurrection was good enough for my sin. I always remind my sweet children one of my favorite quotes: Some people are so poor all they have is money. I think it could also be said that some people are so hurt all they have is hate. We cannot let our hate consume us or we are denying others the forgiveness we so desperately need.

Ephesians 1:7 In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace.

Happy Mothers Day to Future Moms!

I can't promise you anything. I can't promise you children screaming your name. I can't promise you  sleepless nights from an infant who only wants his mommy. I can't promise you little league pictures, last days of school or mother of the bride dresses. I can only offer word of hope and peace. Comfort when the Word of the Lord is the only place to find comfort. 1 Peter 1:3-5 says, "What a God we have! And how fortunate we are to have him, this Father of our Master Jesus! Because Jesus was raised from the dead, we’ve been given a brand-new life and have everything to live for, including a future in heaven—and the future starts now! God is keeping careful watch over us and the future. The Day is coming when you’ll have it all—life healed and whole" Take that promise that God is watching over you. He hears every heartache and sees every tear that falls. God's blessing makes life rich; nothing we do can improve on God. (Proverbs 10:22)
May next year you be woken up to shrill crying and if in twenty years the blessing of children never come, take heart in the one who has overcome the word. 

Reconciled to Christ

The past few weeks I have been convicted. The Holy Spirit just has overwhelmed me about who I am. I am no longer the person I was eight years ago. How lost I was! I didn't even know it. I hated myself and took it out on everyone, the people who loved me the most and I closed myself off from the Holy Spirit. What a lonely place to only have your heart to be your guide.
I have since been reconciled to Redeemer. He wooed me, patiently when I deserved to be cast off as the adulterer I was. Sexual sins are no worse on the sin scale but they tear your heart up more than most any sins since they usually leave other peoples hearts raw, broken.
I is a word I use too much. My journey is nothing with out Christ. He is the One who pulled me out of the darkest pit of my life. I learned so much and gained the most wonderful children from the time I was lost. There is no flow to the post just an outpouring of my heart to tell you that the Light of the world will end the darkest, deepest ocean floor of pain with just a repented heart willing to reconcile to Him.

Time for a Job Change

I am sitting at the computer again trying to think up ways to make extra money. I have had lots of ideas, some that are even pretty good, others that I may still try out. However, I realized that maybe the reason I am not making any money is because that is not what God has called me to do. Maybe he really did call me all the years ago when I dedicated my life to missions to serve on the missions field. So here I am 30, and deciding it's to finally listen and pull a Jonah! 

I am not exactly sure what I'll be doing and how much right away but I know I am called to serve and NOW is the time to start. I forgot to say where, did I? I know that is always important to find out where someone is! Joplin is where I'll be answering the call. The lost are here in this city and they are my neighbors. I was created to tell other people about Christ and His love and I can only do that by loving and befriending the people I see everyday. 

I'm kinda scared. I know who I'll seek out first. His family is the reason I was able to be drawn to Christ in the first place. Jay and Julie St. Clair are home to me. I know with their and my families support I know I will be able to serve Christ and fulfill my calling in life.